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Related: About this forumThen and Now, 21-25: A Transgender Journey
(I'm not crying. You're crying!)
Four years ago I started the journey of becoming who I have always wanted to be. I didnt know what I was doing back then, so I decided to start journaling. My hope was that in giving voice to my thoughts and hearing myself say things out loud, I would gain perspective on what I was wanting and feeling. I had no idea just how much perspective these journal entries would provide me all these years later.
The records I have of him/me are now finite, and I will never understand that person quite like I did. Knowing what I know now about myself and the world gives me an ability to process my feelings and experiences that he didnt have. But its his truthful and heartfelt naivety that will connect with others that are just as new at this as he was.
I could never understand why I could not escape the desire to be a woman. I berated myself endlessly for wanting something so shameful. I had no way of knowing that this longing wasnt a fantasy; it was a part of my soul. It was me.
I dont regret taking as long as I did to come out. It taught me to be strong, and it taught me to stand up with pride. I will always be proud of that boy for how brave he was.
And I plan to make sure no one else suffers like he did.
The records I have of him/me are now finite, and I will never understand that person quite like I did. Knowing what I know now about myself and the world gives me an ability to process my feelings and experiences that he didnt have. But its his truthful and heartfelt naivety that will connect with others that are just as new at this as he was.
I could never understand why I could not escape the desire to be a woman. I berated myself endlessly for wanting something so shameful. I had no way of knowing that this longing wasnt a fantasy; it was a part of my soul. It was me.
I dont regret taking as long as I did to come out. It taught me to be strong, and it taught me to stand up with pride. I will always be proud of that boy for how brave he was.
And I plan to make sure no one else suffers like he did.
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Then and Now, 21-25: A Transgender Journey (Original Post)
QueerDuck
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Coolgoober
(324 posts)1. Amazing
OhioBack2Blue
(103 posts)2. Fantastic!
There is no one path or journey. There is no set age or time frame.
The republicon party will never support the trans community, the Dems are willing to learn and creating space at the policy table in the big tent.
Silence is death. So thank you for being public. Out is opportunity.
I wish thousands of other AMAB people, who are fighting who they are and attacking so many others as they lash out, or beating themselves as they turn the hate inward, or drowning themselves in one addiction or another, would take the same plunge as you.
Bravo! What an inspiring video!
Fight for the right to be fully human in America!