Welp, one down and five to go.

[OldBaldy1701E]

I am now unable to afford my prescription of isosorbide. I am not exactly sure what it does, but I am aware that it has something to do with my blood vessels being more open and flexible. I had a quad bypass in 2020, and I am pretty sure I am approaching my extended deadline. They mention that one requires more medical attention and care after ten years or so. Since I cannot afford the drugs, I certainly cannot afford the other crap associated with 'taking care of yourself'. But, they couldn't care less. After all, the rich get actual healthcare, while the poor get cattle calls. Our rent is coming up and the slave wages that my husband is getting are not enough to survive what is going on today. Hopefully, it will fail soon enough. I am already a complete failure, so why even consider being around for much longer?

I should just check out. No one is going to miss a failure.

[NewHendoLib]

1. Just checked - 90 pills as low as 20 dollars using GoodRX

[dweller]

5. CostPlus

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[OldBaldy1701E]

6. I will check as soon as I find out whether or not we have $20 + shipping.

I downloaded that app a while back so let's see if it can deliver. I am not sure about how to deal with getting the prescription to them, but let me check it out.

Thanks

[bucolic_frolic]

2. Ask your doctor for substitutes

prescription or OTC supplements. A nutritional doctor might have some alternatives.

[OldBaldy1701E]

7. As a matter of fact, I have an appointment with someone who handles this kind of thing.

My doctor made the appointment.

Which is pretty funny, as that does not answer the question.

I had not considered the nutritionist aspect of this, and there may be supplements that will do the job. However, the issue of finance rears its ugly head again.

But, I will check into that. Thanks.

[Irish_Dem]

3. You are holding the light for freedom, democracy, our country.

How the hell is that a failure.

Without people like you we are doomed.

[OldBaldy1701E]

8. Thanks. Doubtful, but thanks. (n/t)

[Irish_Dem]

9. We are here to bear witness and do what we can.

Even if it just posting here on DU.

We send our thoughts and sentiments out to the universe and hope some seeds
are planted.

If that is not being of service I don't know what the H is.

I come from a military family. Everybody is important, everyone does their part.
No matter how small, how seemingly inconsequential.
This is how you win a war.

[Clouds Passing]

4. ...

[OldBaldy1701E]

10. Today, we paid our rent. We now have almost nothing to live on or two weeks.

Ramen and crackers. Water and nothing else.

I have several prescriptions that are about to come up. Too fucking bad, old fart.

I have two injuries that require bandaids and treatment spray. Oh well.

I have issues that really need to be addressed. I cannot even try to.

We are the trash, the outside edges that are expected to be cut away so that the dish can look good. Everything that is cut away is still completely edible and delicious. But, it doesn't help with the illusion of the dish. So, we get the 'knife'.

I do not expect anything other than to die. I just want it to happen sooner and painlessly rather than slowly and painfully.

Too fucking bad, failure. I don't get to do anything but suffer and continue to suffer.

I hate life and I hate myself for ever believing any of the crap I was told either as a child, or an adult. It was all lies and propaganda.

There is no justice. There is no equality. There is just greed and lust. We refuse to stop either of them. We revel in them.

I apologize, but these days I am just not in the mood to be pleasant or 'compassionate'. Yes, I understand the irony of that statement. I just don't care.

I used to. I used to be the first person to stop at an accident. I helped others in any way I could. That practice cost me everything, I guess, because look where I am. I have nothing. I am nothing.

I thought that this situation would allow some real progressives the change to get somewhere in this society that does not seem to like progressives. I was wrong. We do not want to progress. We would have accepted it long ago if we did.

Again I am sorry. I have been trying to stay away because I am filled with nothing but poison and bile anymore. I give up. Even if something happens and we do manage to avoid a total descent into fascism, nothing will change for me. I was poor and a waste of skin before all of this happened, and after so many decades of failing and continuing to be seen as 'out there' because I prefer us to be humans rather than greedy, self-absorbed numbers, I just cannot anymore.

I have no idea if I will even have internet after today. I don't know when that bill will come in and we certainly cannot handle it if it does appear soon. The same with the other bills. We are already have bills in collections. We have nothing to give them.

I will be trying to sell my two guitars. They re the only things that I have that might have some value in society. (I have a much different view of what has value, which is probably also a big reason why I am where I am.) I will probably faint when I actually do. (Hell I can feel a bit of anxiety attack coming up just from typing this.) They will be the last bit of my former life that I have. But, we are at that point. I had hoped that I could pass them along to my nephew, since that will be as close to having a child of my own as I will ever get. But, alas, I should have known better about that as well.

It is time for me to accept that I was never meant to be here in the first place.