Holly

[MIButterfly]

I have to make sure Holly eats before I give her her insulin and she hadn't eaten since 12:30 Friday morning and she was acting very peculiar, so I took her to the emergency vet this afternoon and was there until around 10:30.

Long story short, Holly is even sicker than I feared. Not only does she have diabetes, she has a severe form of it and the doctor suspects she has something wrong with her brain or one of her internal organs because she kept walking in circles, leaning to the left, in the exam room. He tried to steer her to the right, but she kept going left. They took her back for more tests and he was telling me my options and he mentioned euthanasia. It took a minute for it to register and I said "you mean TONIGHT?" and he said yes. I completely fell apart. I wasn't expecting that at all. Holly is my healthy cat; Martini is the sick one. I've been trying to come to terms with Martini's illness and I always thought when she goes, I wouldn't get another cat right away to give Holly a chance to be an only cat. I always thought she would be happier as an only cat. She never really liked Martini and barely tolerated her. Now she'll never be an only cat.

Anyway, I completely fell apart and just kept saying No, not tonight. Not tonight. Not tonight. I am absolutely devastated. I can't handle this. When Boots died, I swore I'd never get another cat again because losing her was just too painful and now here I am again.

I asked the doctor if she's in any kind of pain but he said there's no way to tell.

I'm going to see if I can get Holly in with our regular vet on Monday and see what she says. My heart is breaking. I hate this more than I can say. Not Holly. Not my beautiful, wonderful Holly. I love her so much.

I'll tell you, this sure was a lousy way to spend Martini's birthday.

[2naSalit]

1. Oh dear!

[SheltieLover]

2. I'm so sorry

[bamagal62]

3. I am so sorry. 😢

[virgdem]

4. Sending healing thoughts to Holly

and hoping you get better news from your Vet on Monday. Please keep us posted.

[SuzyandPuffpuff]

5. Lousy

First of all see if anyone can come to your house for euthanasia if that's what Yu end up doing. It sounds like your dear maybe had a stroke. Just stay close to her. Let her b in your arms and snuggle. Try not to cry too much as it adds to their anxiety. I'm so so sorry. Shitty day for all.

[mwmisses4289]

6. gentle hug 🫂 to you all.

[3catwoman3]

7. How awful. We will be holding all of you in our thoughts.

[HeartsCanHope]

8. I hope with all my heart your vet can help you make sense of what's going on.

Be sure you mention to your vet the walking in circles. There are many causes for that,

some as benign as an ear infection or it could be something much more serious. Your vet

knows Holly, and I'm glad you waited to talk to him/her. Sending you love and light, and many,

many virtual hugs. If you are able, please let us know what you find out.

[Dear_Prudence]

9. Heart rending

I hope your vet can offer some help for Holly. You take care of yourself, for your sake, but also because Holly needs you for her comfort and welfare. Having lost my cat Wolfie in November, I feel for you.