ok, who wants to hear my good news?
so, i put up this thread about my son a while back, https://www.democraticunderground.com/1266706
and today is a most peculiar and unexpected breakthrough day. so weird.
ok, so, over the weekend, i ended up in jail. it's a long boring story, but i stood up to some bullies, got arrested, and missed my court day. i was stress related sick af because of the people who got me arrested.
anywho, i figured i'd get a letter or something, but i wasnt worried.
i'd been charged w a misdemeanor that carried zero fine, and i'd admitted what i did. i am not sure why i had to go to court, but...
so, they issued a warrant, but nobody told me, and i got picked up.
a very strange mother-son bonding experience, but he did a week in the same jail, which rly compounded his trauma. i thought i got it, but now i truly get it.
we started chatting, and after a bit of defensiveness, he realized we were always on the same page about the petty cruelty of the system.
then he told me that he had made a friend, a musician, that wanted him to drum for him.
now, drumming is what this kid did for the pain when he still lived at home.
he has a roomy now, so cant make noise. i sent him what i thought was a decent pad, but it only insulted him. so, today i offered to get him a good electronic kit.
he's been so excited all day, figuring out what he wants.
finally, i've found a way that he can feel the love.
jeeez how did it get so duty in here?
i should add that he had gotten pissed at both his dad and me, and wouldnt accept any help. but he started talking to the youngest, who asked for help for him. so dad and i have been sending money. the kid cant work as he has warrants, and no dl or car any more.
marble falls
(62,041 posts)mopinko
(71,784 posts)and til you get through, you can only sit w it.
so, i've been sitting w a pretty big pile of shit lately.
good news wa so f'ing needed.
marble falls
(62,041 posts)... Withhold not thou, Jehovah, thy tender mercies from me; let thy loving-kindness and thy truth continually preserve me.
Shakespeare and King James.
mopinko
(71,784 posts)this last year i have wrestled mightily w truth.
it hasnt been pretty, it hasnt been easy, but it has been wholly good.