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[Marthe48]

10. We never see the big picture

and if we say we do, it's ego. So you don't remember every single thing you did that boosted someone else. Those things are easy to forget, but man, we sure remember the things we did wrong. And the things that didn't go the way we wanted. And the people who harmed us. I spend too much time dwelling on things that were probably not as important as I still think they are. I am always happy when I run into people I forgot about and they remind me of something nice I did. It gives me a peek at the big picture.

As for pain and loss, I've already had my share and I dread the other shoes that will drop. It helps to think that my loved ones are safe, healthy, happy, even if they aren't on this side of the veil. They are in the afterlife they imagined they would have. If they didn't go intact to Heaven, their atoms live on in that tree, those clouds, the dirt of my beloved Earth. It is easy to say hi if I miss them, even if I don't hear their voices in reply. To have them as long as I did was enough to add their essence into mine, so no one I loved is ever truly gone.

There will be another day you'll be up. My friend lived with chronic health problems almost her whole life. But she created happiness for herself. I miss the phone calls where we laughed ourselves silly over bad jokes. She died last year, but even if she is gone, I am still finding knowledge in her wisdom. Because of her, I look for joy, even if on some days, it is hard to see.

Cheers!