I have to be honest with you folks. ------------------

[debm55]

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The reason I was off for a time was that I was terribly depressed. I snapped at underpants. whom I so enjoyed, I was not myself. Most of you know of my 70 year relationship with my parents and siblings. and the physical, emotional and sexual abuse, The last time I mentioned about this. I decided to go no contact. So I blocked them as some suggested. Well, she called my husband and he gave me the phone. It was my mother on the speaker phone, telling me that Rich filled my sisters SS papers out wrong. I have no reason why she didn't tell Rich. She ended up tell me that she never told me , because she didn't love me.Never did from the day I was born. In the Catholic Church , if a mother is having a hard delivery , the father is told to pick the one to save. Really it's a no brainer as the choice back then, was always the child. So my Father picked me to save. They pulled me out of the birth channel with forceps and broke my shoulder, ( I was the first born) She had three stitches, But from that point on, she said she hated me. At that point , she ended the call with "I love you,___not and laughed. I kept my phone blocked and told Rich to again block his. I had bought a card and put a check inside for Christmas. That evening I get a call from a number I was unfamiliar with--was my sister's. My Mother gets on the phone and asks me that my sister can't walk.It was 10:30 , Rich was sleeping. I said no, as he got his hormone injection earlier in the day. and still is taking his medical hormones at night. He vomited all day. I told her to call an ambulance or a neighbor. She said no. I said sorry I can't help you neither can Rich. Rich never blocked his phone and I received no Merry Christmas from them or that they got the card. It is sad, that after 70 years it turns out they don't love me or are proud of me. I am glad as I will no longer chase that dream. I will give that love to my husband and son and to the DUers here. My heart is cleansed.