My dog died this morning.

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84. This is not crazy, BP ...

my own experiences started when I was 5 yo and I do not remember the 1st one, but have been told by others that witnessed it. The events occur at different times of the day when I am wide awake. I have only 'seen' two dead persons; the others I have felt, sensed and/smelled their presence. I do not hear them speak, but their words come into my thoughts. My mother and maternal great-aunt also had this ability - some called it a blessing while others called it a curse. I call it both and learned early to pick and choose those to whom I could tell.
When my brother was in the hospital dying, I was on the phone with him. He told me he loved me; but had to hang up and that he would talk with me again soon. I said "I love you, big Bro." but did not hang up the phone. The next voice I heard was his nurse who told me my brother had smiled, handed her the phone and died. (I was not in condition to travel and his funeral was 2000 mi. away.)
Several days later, when I was doing genealogy and looking for my long lost mat. grandfather as I had done many times but had found nothing on him after finding his 1st marriage, I felt my brother standing behind me, looking over my shoulder. The thought popped in my mind, look up Uncle -----! On the Uncle's death cert. was my grand-father's real name; which was different from the one he used and is on his death cert. and tombstone. I had found him!
When my mother was in ICU and still unconscious, I was told to go home and get some rest, they would call me for any change. I got the call just as soon as I laid down; dressed and went out to the car to find my stepfather - he had been dead 3 years. He sat beside me and I could sense his sweet-diabetic aroma mixed with his after-shave. He stayed with me into the early hours of the morning when I was called back into ICU. I was given the opportunity to be alone with my mother for a few minutes. Told her I loved her and would be OK, then I sense her moving toward the upper corner of the room where my stepfather waited. I sensed their smiles and waved good-bye thru tears.
For years, I could sense when something bad was going to happen soon; just not what or to whom; my Ex call it my "sense of impending doom".
I also used to be able to meditate and enter an altered state or to use a semi-self hypnotic state where I could control any pain that I had.
It seems as if I have lost all the above abilities in just the past few years and I don't know why; but I do remember them with clarity.