Okay. That did NOT go well.

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14. So true

My heart shattered yet again last week, but I did the right thing, the moral thing, the heartbreaking thing that had to be done and I couldn't have done it without the program. I don't yet have a sponsor but since in one way or another, the question of a sponsor comes up in one way or another every day , it is clear my higher power is nudging me. And I no longer ignore her. For some reason, getting a sponsor scares me - but I'm going to be scared and do it anyway because I know the other road and I cannot go down it again, at least not without destroying myself. And I'm not willing to do that.

I will say I am so grateful for the easy days when they come. They are grace in the midst of the storm. It's like my higher power knows when I need a little break. It's always just a little break, but that's all I need. Well, I think I need more but I give my will to Evelyn. She is the one who guides this ship these days.