OMG this winter is killing my arthritis! GAH! is it the f'in solar flares?...what?!

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I'm still sick. And since I'm on medi-CAL I can't get in to the clinic so the ER will be my next round of going back to the dr after a week + of antibiotics and now the sinus thing is in my ear and throat....

But my lord, wtaf with my JOINTS!?! all my little bones like in my hands and feet, like bones I shouldn't be feeling at all...are throbbing. And it hasn't even been particularly cold or snowy here in Sierras, CA... just damp and chilly enough to make you not want to play outside.

Ugh. Spring can't get here soon enough. I started a new acupuncture person yesterday, really looking forward to making those positive shifts. Lots of residual "anger" in my liver... makes sense. I've been mad at my life for a while now... She's probably also flushng out those years of alcoholism I quit in 2023.

Anyway, I just needed to whine about my damn body trying to K!ll me. I swear.
I got a lot of trauma and stuff to work through and getting my body even moving the littlest bit hurts SO much and yet I have to keep going. I'm too fuckin young to feel this old!

Baby steps.
I'm also trying to spend less time on news and socials. Trying to literally UNPLUG from the MATRIX! Thhis body needs me to pay attention to it, not escape and lie here and wallow...