Big morning, tears in my coffee...therapy at noon...

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8. Welll.... Fuck.

Another monster therapy session I've got a migraine from crying. I just drank a quart of water I swear and I'm going to lay down in a minute.

My son emailed back. And he loves me and misses me and all of the above. But he is not doing well and is in a really bad situation and his girlfriend is pregnant and they're going to have to split up because they can't live together and afford life and he's talking about going back and living with my ex his father even though that man is fucking scary crazy nuts. But Devin seems to think it's the only thing he can do to try to make enough money to support the family that he's creating. I'm heartbroken. I want to help. I want to rescue him and I don't know how to. This life is so cruel right now and this world is so hard and these poor kids can't even afford to get a place to live they've been living in an RV because they can't afford life it's just not fair this world sucks. And I would sell my house and use the money to save them if I could but I can't I just don't know what to do and now it hurts even more knowing that he's not okay 😭