major nightmare trauma dump last night...and then I cleaned my room today... [View all]
My abusive ex had just lumped everything from my office and living room things into the bedroom to make room for HER friend who was gonna come and caretake her after surgery (thank god she never came, I would have had two bitches iin my face)...and I came across all my mom's cards and pictures shoved under stuff just willy-nilly. I cried so hard. She just could not *stand* that I had a lovinig family...
My son and gf and baby are staying with me till they get settled out here (they were living in a busted down rv and eating scraps...it was BAD) and my sone heard me screaming in my sleep last night. He helped me wake out of a dream I couldn't swim to the surface of consciousness. And he held me while I sobbed for a good 5 minutes. It still makes me teary because I needed that SO much!
So much emotion today. Crying again.
It's part of releasing what I want to leave behind in 2024 with this last Full Moon... My Birthday being New Year's Day is not lost on me this year. That bitch nearly killed me, I'll be 55 ...and glad to be alive.
Even if the trauma work still sucks.
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