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Mental Health Support

FirstLight

(14,829 posts) Sat Feb 8, 2025, 02:03 AM Feb 8

Why bother? ...it's all gonna fucking burn anyway... [View all]

I dont know if I've been sick this week because of my autoimmune disease or depression, but it feels like both.

I keep seeing posts here and elsewhere "keep fighting" and "fight back" and I am tired and i think I'm out of fight.

What's the point of re-launching my stupid website? What's the POINT of doing my homework for a BA that won't ever happen? what's the point of struggling to make this body work better when it's broken and I'm gonna lose my healthcare and then I'll really just want to die...

It's just like, how am I gonna make anything actually work in this life of mine...I'm 55, disabled, and pretty much broke.

It's just feeling very dark right now and if the ones we thought would be our 'helpers' are not able to help, wtf am *I* gonna do?

ETA: thanks for the hearts

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Why bother? ...it's all gonna fucking burn anyway... [View all] FirstLight Feb 8 OP

I get it. I just don't think you will lose health coverage, if for no other reason than plenty of GOPers are in same Silent Type Feb 8 #1

I agree, I don't think they will take healthcare away. LiberalLoner Feb 8 #3

A monk running from a tiger comes to a precipice.... WheelWalker Feb 8 #2

Beautiful answer! LiberalLoner Feb 8 #4

💙💙💙 sheshe2 Feb 8 #5

I'm 62 and disabled by MS. And wondering if the cancer I was treated for last year will come back soon or not. I just LiberalLoner Feb 8 #6

And during these darkest of days, we should always remember....we are not alone! Missoula Coyote Choir... LiberalLoner Feb 8 #8

Thank you FirstLight Feb 8 #9

If there are only 'bits' to be had... OldBaldy1701E Feb 9 #19

I'm so sorry. To explain, I grew up being abused in pretty much every way. I never felt safe. LiberalLoner Feb 10 #21

And, I apologize for how harsh that now sounds. OldBaldy1701E Feb 10 #23

No worries! 💙💙💙🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗. I hope your day is a good one too! Although I am freaking out today, LiberalLoner Feb 10 #24

The last few days have been. OldBaldy1701E Feb 10 #25

They've been rough, that's the truth. LiberalLoner Feb 10 #26

Get a pencil and paper and write down 5 times in your life that were your proudest moments. multigraincracker Feb 8 #7

I know what you mean! BigmanPigman Feb 8 #10

Love all of you here, so much. I just love you guys and I am glad you are here. ❤️❤️❤️❤️ LiberalLoner Feb 8 #11

I feel the same way. The support forums have become so much Mike 03 Feb 9 #14

FirstLight kozar Feb 8 #12

Man do I empathize. Try to hang on until spring. Mike 03 Feb 9 #13

Hey you, just checking in on you, how are you feeling today? 🤗💙 LiberalLoner Feb 9 #15

workin' on it... trying to motivate to shoft my surroundings... FirstLight Feb 9 #16

Even just one little thing can start a cycle of positivity! LiberalLoner Feb 9 #17

Hey I wanted to ask you, have you ever noticed that in movies, when they have candles, LiberalLoner Feb 9 #18

"I'm 55, disabled, and pretty much broke." OldBaldy1701E Feb 9 #20

Hey, FirstLight and everyone else, how are you doing today? Please check in! 💙💙💙 LiberalLoner Feb 10 #22

Still here, still breathing, still trying to heal FirstLight Feb 10 #27