J/K, but that was my first thought! I have no idea if his weird stance on psychiatric drugs has anything to do with Scientology, but there is an eerie similarity.
In case anyone doesn't know, Scientology is radically opposed to all psychiatric drugs and everything else to do with what L. Ron Hubbard once called the "psychiatrist-psychologist-psychoanalyst clique." They have waged war against all mainstream forms of mental health care for decades, claiming that mental illness is not "real" and that they alone have the answers to all of our problems!
I get a mite testy -- correction, furiously enraged -- whenever anyone starts badmouthing all psychiatric drugs, because the antidepressants I've been taking for the last 20 years have improved my life immeasurably. For that reason alone I would hate Scientology with the fire of a thousand suns, even if I didn't know about any of the other horrible stuff connected with that so-called "church."
I don't know how I managed to miss hearing about RFK Jr's weird stance on mental health drugs, but now that I'm aware, my previously low opinion of him has dropped to a subterranean level!
Sorry for using your post as an off ramp to a rant about mental health drugs; get the red out. It's just that whenever I hear about someone as influential as RFK Jr advocating against the use of psychiatric meds, I see red. SO much red that it tends to block out everything else momentarily. Now that the red mist has cleared, I just wanted to to say that I'm very glad to hear that you're in a better place since your divorce, and I am extremely sympathetic to your sister's predicament and hope she finds a solution soon.
I am also very concerned about the suicidal ideation you described in the last long paragraph of your post. I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that I think you sound clinically depressed. That stuff about your loved ones being better off without you is right out of the Depression 101 play book. It's exactly the kind of thing people tell themselves when they're in the throes of a severe depression. I don't know if you're on any psych meds right now or not, but if you are, I would call the person who prescribed them and ask for an appointment ASAP. And if you're not on any mental health meds, I would strongly suggest that you call your primary health care provider and ask for an appointment ASAP. When you see them, tell them what you told us in this post.
I hope I haven't come off as pushy. If I have, I offer my sincerest apologies.
I usually try not to stick my nose in other people's business, but after reading this post, I'm concerned about you. I've been down Depression Road many times, and I know what the landscape looks like. If you think anything I said was off base, feel free to ignore!