"Love & Light" woo-woo'ers vs. Reality

[FirstLight]

It's so very common in the spiritual and esoteric world to see people that are ALL love & light & puppies & butterflies.

I wanna adress the very REAL side of life that we need to really acknowledge if we're gonna do any real evolving on this planet. (This is just my personal opinion, and I welcome your input and opposing views etc)

We've all known those teachers and guides and elders ...the ones who wear all white to keep negativity off them. The ones who always promote loving compassion for the brutes and real awful people in your life. The ones who are all about the daily meditation and full practice and nothing less. The ones who say it's not your place to weild ill will and that holding people accountable can be done gently and lovingly...etcetc

I wanna talk about the reality of being fully human, and recognizing that sometimes, we don't *have* to forgive and bless those who have done us grave wrongs. Sometimes, it's ok to wish for Karma to whop them upside the head with the "brick of Truth" and FAFO. Let someone else hold that person in compassion, it's not always your job.

I've had those teachers myself, and while I often felt 'less than' compared to the higher vibration they were walking, I've now come to realize that my humanness isn't a full on flaw. And I often wondered how they made abundance come to them out of thin air, or how they 'manifested' good things so easily, while the rest of us 'followers' struggled with health, poverty, etc...well maybe it was because they have people like ME funding their lifestyle! It's really easy to be all love & light when you have health insurance or a house you got as a divorce settlement so you dont have to worry about rent.

It needs to be said, heard, and embraced more in the spiritual circles that we're human and have these emotions and struggles as part of the lesson. It's not always about letting go and letting god, we gotta get down in the trenches sometimes, do the deep digging in the muck of our lives, generational traumas, and the uncertainty that this life gives us. We can't always pray away a disease or illness, or an abusive partner, or loss of a job and the cascade of events that come along with that. Nor should we.
Getting mad, frustrated, and healing through the muck is why we're here in the first place. It's not about re-creating heaven on earth as much as it is finding earth's inherent beauty, even amongst the ashes of our own lives.

I guess I feel compelled to share these thoughts as I was having a deep dive talk with my bestie yesterday, and she asked about my Mentor, and how she's helped me with recent trauma from DV that almost took my life... the answer, she hasn't. Instead I got told "I thought you were done with that lesson"...then radio silence. For someone who I looked u to and thought was pretty advanced and connected, her response to my almost DYING was so very tone-deaf I was really taken aback. Even after I reached back out to let her know what was up after a month (because she'd asked a mutual sister-friend to have me call her) I got crickets. I've been part of her life and she a part of mine for 30 years, and that was it. Maybe she didn't want to deal with all that "heavy and dark" energy. But that shows me a shallowness to her practice that I never expected...

In this same conversation, I told my friend that I was NOT going to be that kind of leader/teacher in my own practice. I will wholeheartedly say that, while holding a grudge is unhealthy, it DOESN'T mean you have to hold compassion or even forgiveness for someone who has hurt you severely. There are PLENTY of other souls who can offer that person the love and forgiveness they may need...but it isn't in my job description. Drop it like it's hot and move on to you own healing. Let Karma handle them and their toxicity, you can hold your Light and still be a bass ass bitch.

Hell, look at Freyja - she suffered NO fools!

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