helloooooo ?

[ellenrr]

6. i'm here. i been thinking: times when I wish I were NOT a loner--

when it's 105 fuckin' degrees and too hot to leave my apartment. See, usually when I feel like I do now - restless -- I would go to my garden, go for a walk, sit under a tree and read a book -- I cannot do any of that.

stuck inside.

you are thinking - i could read a book inside.
Nope - can't. don't. not sure if it is my vision or my brain, I can only concentrate out-of-doors.

don't want to be on computer, don't want radio, tv or music.

thinking about asking someone if they want to see if it is too hot to sit on this bench in the park, maybe after the sun goes down.

what I'd really like to do is take a book down there, and invite someone and they also bring a book or whatever-- cuz I don't feel like being alone nor do i feel like making conversation.

have you ever felt like that?

basically i feel all discombobulated due to weather, ill at ease, do not know what i want to do.