Should have expected the 'crash' today... but still... [View all]
Did the Farmer's Market for the first AND LAST time yesterday. Nearly broke my damn body to hell moving and schlepping it all... NO Bueno for my L4/L5 issues and the rest of my arthritic body.
Sat there for 6 hours and NOBODY bought a damn thing, no body even took a business card.
Got told to stop drumming cus it was disturbing other vendors (i was drumming quietly to bring people in and maybe do some sound therapy...I was offering 10 mintue mini-sound baths. I had ONE lady who I did a great job with and she was amazed that she could move her knee when we were done, she even cried. so that was awesome...but the rest of it was stupid. The people were NOT there to buy stuff, just there to walk around and talk shit. One mother said that my painted rocks were no better than what they could do at home...RUDE
So today I am broke, sore, and pretty depressed to be honest. I'm literally scraping by ... down to my last 50 bucks for groceries and gas. Supposed to be selling the car for the divorce and splitting it with the ex... but I can't do THAT till my drivers license comes in the mail (lost my wallet two weeks ago...ugh).
Got an email today from my lawyer that my ex is getting pushy about it, and I am not replying to them until monday.
On top of all of it, my youngest and hiis GF/baby got an eviction notoce on the apartment I rented for them in February... cuz he can't hold a fuckinig JOB. I spent the last of my savings on helping them, they are just not making good choices... and I can't let them move back in with me cuz I have fought too hard for my PEACE and I cannot deal with their bullshit. My son has not responded to me since I said that... but has he shown up for me since he came back to the area? He flaked on helping me with the Market, flaked on helping me with the yard etc...
I'm DONE giving to people who don't give a crap about me! family too.
Sorry I just needed to rant and unload. I'm crying now.
It is so frustrating to be doing everything 'right' and staying positive and making the effort and everything and still hitting the fucking WALL.
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