My sister committed suicide today. I'm the one who.found her and

[anniebelle]

147. There are no words.

You will have moments, many, many, moments of unspeakable grief during the coming days and weeks and months and yes, years. My advice is to seek counsel to deal with your pain. Everyone handles their grief differently, but in the end, it's all about feeling helpless and lonely. I've been there and deal with it every day. First I was angry, then felt guilty that I couldn't have been of more help. I will have to say, I don't think it's helpful to blame the person who felt so alone, they felt the only way to escape their pain was to end it all. Until you've been in that exact same position, how could one possibly know what was going on in her heart and soul and mind. Please take care of yourself and express your grief openly and freely ~ it does help to get through the lonely days ahead.