My sister committed suicide today. I'm the one who.found her and

[NanceGreggs]

215. I am so sorry for your loss.

It is hard to explain to anyone who has not "been there" how devastating such a loss can be.

Back in my younger days - my 30s and 40s - I befriended many widows who lived in my neighbourhood. I often wondered why they couldn't "just move on" with their lives after losing a spouse. I had NO idea how painful that process was, and how difficult it would be to "just move on" as though your world had not been turned upside-down in an instant.

My late husband had been my third marriage - I rejoiced daily in the idea that I had FINALLY met my soul-mate, the man with whom I would live "happily ever after".

As Cher (as Loretta Castorini in Moonstruck) said of her dead husband: "Who knew that man was a gift I couldn't keep."

Alas, my late husband truly was a "gift I couldn't keep". I wish I'd been able to - but sadly for me, life had other plans.